Day 29: Commissioned

Paper Tigers & Impressing God

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I, Paul, and my companions in faith here, send greetings to the Galatian churches. My authority for writing to you does not come from any popular vote of the people, nor does it come through the appointment of some human higher-up. It comes directly from Jesus the Messiah and God the Father, who raised him from the dead. I’m God-commissioned. So I greet you with the great words, grace and peace! We know the meaning of those words because Jesus Christ rescued us from this evil world we’re in by offering himself as a sacrifice for our sins. God’s plan is that we all experience that rescue. Glory to God forever! Oh, yes!
— Galatians 1:1-5 The Message

As we come to the end of our series, I want to go back to the very beginning of Galatians.  (Yes, I know that is backward, but so much of studying the gospel is the opposite of the way the world works, so it fits.)

Paul lets the church at Galatia know where his authority for writing the letter, that is the book of Galatians, comes from.  The English Standard Version phrases it like this, "not from men nor through man."  The Message version takes a more poetic approach.  It says that it doesn't come from popular vote or higher-up appointment.  

Our media has been overly obsessed with popular votes and the appointments that the vote winner will have the authority to make.  Neither of these man-made authorities is necessary to have God's authority.

Instead, Paul's authority comes directly through Jesus.  The Message version says that he is God-commissioned.

Here's some good news.  You are God-commissioned too.

You have been commissioned with His authority to go into all the world proclaiming His message.

And Jesus came and said to them, ‘All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.’
— Matthew 28:18-20 ESV

This is The Great Commission, and it is a calling we are all commanded to fulfill as a Christian.  In this commission, Jesus promises to be with us until the end of the age, basically FOREVER.

He is with us as we fulfill this mission.  We are not alone.  It is God's will that everyone should hear the gospel, and when we go, making disciples, we are joining the work God is already doing here on earth.

Here are some facts that might erase the fear you might have of being commissioned:

  • You are not alone.  The Spirit is with you.
  • You cannot mess up the job of making a disciple if the Holy Spirit is the only one who can draw hearts to God.
  • You cannot impress God by making a disciple because Jesus is the one who actually brought that sheep to Himself.
  • You cannot disappoint God when someone rejects God.  God knows everyone's heart already.
  • You are obeying God's call making disciples.
  • Your obedience pleases God.
  • God loves you no matter what.
  • Our relationship with God is only based on Christ, nothing else.

So go!  Make disciples!  Help others come to know Him.  Help others know Him more.  You are God-commissioned.

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Day 6: What's My Motivation

Paper Tigers & Impressing God

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Part of trying to figure out the issue of impressing God leads me to examine motivation.  I have been trying to examine why I do things.  Why do I serve God?  Why do I sacrifice time and money for Him?  Sometimes I don’t like my answers to these questions.

The most frustrating thing is that I can’t figure out what the correct answers are.  My humanity can let even the most canned Sunday school answers turn self-serving.

I want to serve for the right reasons, and I want my offering of time and money to be pure.  Is that even possible?

Maybe I should just take on Paul’s attitude of “what does it matter” in Philippines 1.

Some indeed preach Christ from envy and rivalry, but others from good will. The latter do it out of love, knowing that I am put here for the defense of the gospel. The former proclaim Christ out of selfish ambition, not sincerely but thinking to afflict me in my imprisonment. What then? Only that in every way, whether in pretense or in truth, Christ is proclaimed, and in that I rejoice.
— Philippians 1:15-18 ESV

I posted this idea about motivations on my Instagram, and my sister-in-law Anna Clement commented this, “I struggle with this too.  Especially when I’m burnt out with the people I am serving.  My efforts feel pretty vain when inside I’m thinking, ‘I don’t even like these people right now!’  In those times I try to be honest with God since He already knows my heart.  Sometimes He tells me to just stop and let Him bring me back in tune with His Spirit before moving ahead.”

Being honest with God is so simple, but sometimes it is hard for me.  If I’m trying to impress God, I don’t want to say something to Him that I know He’s not going to like, even if I know deep down that He already knows what I’m feeling and thinking.

As humans with a nature to sin, it is impossible to have our motivations pure all of the time.  We cannot share the gospel and serve others always in truth, good will, grace, and love.  We can try, but we will never do it perfectly.

Paul says in Philippians that the gospel is proclaimed every single, stinking way that it is preached.  If it is out of good motivations or bad, either way, Paul says that he rejoices that the gospel is advanced.

God can use your serving Him, even when it is done with bad motivation.

We continue to please God in all that we do and advance the Gospel, even when our heart isn’t right.  Because truth be told, if we stop and start analyzing our motivations, they are never going to look right.

Let us do our best to serve in truth, good will, grace, and love, but as we fall short, because we will fall short, keep advancing the gospel.

Looking back at my service to Him over the last few years, I see it steeped in wanting to impress God.  God used my service anyway.  I can see that the gospel was advance, even when my motivations smelled yucky.

I thank God that He is teaching me to stop trying to impress Him.  I am so thankful He is showing me how much He loves me, no matter what.

Knowing this motivates me to serve Him more.


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Humble, Serving, Local Church

#servetogrow part 5

Learning about other cultures makes you aware of your own culture.  Someone pointed out to me that people in Northern Africa have a very community based identity, and I can help but notice this same attribute in so many other world cultures.  Having your identity defined by your tribe or family is very different from the culture I grew up in.  It brings America’s culture of individualism more glaring into view.

Movies like Footloose, where a young boy finds his identity in doing the one thing his family and tribe disapproves of - dancing, or E.T., where a child of divorce relates more closely with an alien than his own school and family, or Sixteen Candles, where a family is so disjointed that they forget their daughter’s big birthday, remind me where I get me individualistic thinking from.  I rarely say “we” or “us.”

When I read the letters of the Bible, only a few of them were written to an individual.  There were some letters written to Timothy, one to Titus, and one to Philemon.  17 of the 21 letters were written to a specific congregation or multiple congregations.  They were written with to an audience with a different culture than ours, a culture with community based identities.

As you read this passage from Philippians, imagine it was written to your local church, in the way it was written to the church at Philippi.

So if there is any encouragement in Christ, any comfort from love, any participation in the Spirit, any affection and sympathy, complete my joy by being of the same mind, having the same love, being in full accord and of one mind. Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves. Let each of you look not only to his own interests, but also to the interests of others. Have this mind among yourselves, which is yours in Christ Jesus, who, though he was in the form of God, did not count equality with God a thing to be grasped, but emptied himself, by taking the form of a servant, being born in the likeness of men. And being found in human form, he humbled himself by becoming obedient to the point of death, even death on a cross. 9 Therefore God has highly exalted him and bestowed on him the name that is above every name, so that at the name of Jesus every knee should bow, in heaven and on earth and under the earth, and every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord, to the glory of God the Father.
— Philippians 2:1-11 ESV

Reading that passage with a community mindset, it takes on a different life in your mind.  I don’t imagine Paul telling me to humble myself personally and serve, but I imagine Paul telling my people to come together humbly and serve together.

As an individual, we absolutely should take on the humility of Christ and take the form of a servant.  It is a life-long process of sanctification.  This process is spiritual growth.

As a church body, we should also be taking on the humility of Christ and taking the form of a servant.  That means, not just serving each other, but serving our cities and communities.

Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.

Our church should look at the people who are not yet part of the global church, those that do not know the life-changing news of the gospel, and count them more significant than our congregation.

I don’t see that happen very often.  I don’t think it’s because people in churches are selfish jerks either.  I think there are a lot of reasons that answer the question of why this isn’t happening in most local churches.

1.  Groupthink

Groupthink is defined as the practice of thinking or making decisions as a group in a way that discourages creativity or individual responsibility.  This is a real thing.  It has been proven by psychological testing.  When humans get together and try to make discussions as a group, creativity goes by the wayside and so do our biggest individual core values.  As a Christian, we know we value serving others, but as a group, that individual responsibility of serving others gets lost.  It takes serious creativity and risk-taking to serve those outside the church.  Groupthink is killing our ability to do this.

2.  Status Quo

Changing the current situation takes a big momentum shift.  It is extremely difficult to change.  Making changes in church culture or policy sometimes ends in pastors being fired or people changing churches.  Those kinds of high-stake consequences make change almost impossible.

3.  Human Nature

It is just a fact that our flesh is drawn to easy and comfortable.  We don’t even think about how much we depend on the comforts of our homes and inward-focused churches.  It is only when our comforts are challenged that we even consider how we operate.  When we remodel our kitchen or go on a mission trip, we are thrown out of our comfort zone and question bigger decisions.  When things our comfortable, we rarely think about the big picture.

4.  Perks of Membership 

Many church members see their church as a type of club they belong to.  They view their tithes as dues, and it is awesome when your club has great benefits, a gym, great childcare, free coffee, cool t-shirts, fun trips, or cool camps.

5.  Lack of Volunteers

Every church struggles to fill nursery volunteer slots and teaching roles.  Church leaders and members can view those empty slots and built a narrative of scarcity.  They see those empty service positions and they decide that their congregation doesn’t have an interest in serving.  The fact is that nursery workers and teachers will be hard tasks to find volunteers for until Jesus comes back.  The true narrative is that congregations are full of people who want to serve, have diverse talents to give, and would gladly use those talents to reach the lost in their community.  They just don’t want to change diapers, and who can blame them.

So how do we stop the groupthink and change the status quo of local church?  How do churches begin serving their city and community?

The worst thing you could do is get mad at your pastor or church leaders.  They are working hard in an emotionally and spiritually difficult job.  They don’t need someone upset; they need someone set free.

I think the best thing you can do is start a work and invite church members to take part in your act of service.  Start small and get your pastor’s blessing.  You pastor might or might not the church’s name associated with your service project.  Be ok with it either way.  Call it the Philippians Project if you need to.  Find out something your community needs and serve them.  Find someone that isn’t a part of the Church, and find a way to show them that you count them more significant than your congregation.

Reading this, you might realize that I began this post telling you to think less individualistically, and now I am telling you to act individualistically.  In a perfect world, we could change our church culture and make it more outwardly focused on a dime.  The reality that we discussed makes this impossible.  Do what you can to peacefully change your local church’s culture and focus, but that is going to take time.  If we wait for those changes to happen before we begin serving our community, forget it.  You might as well pray your great-great-grandkids will have fun serving their community with their church.  You are the church.  You change your actions, invite your church members to join with you in serving, and I think outwardly-focused service will be contagious.  

As you serve your city, you will grow spiritually.  You will become more humble.  You will become more like Christ.

Community & Anxiety

I’ve blogged about this before, but in case you missed it:  I have social anxiety.  I have a hard time being around people.

One of the biggest parts of social anxiety is feeling like everyone else is in a group that I’m not in.  In my head, when I let it go to that place, I decide that everyone likes everyone else, and that everyone else doesn’t like me.

I know it is silly.  Social anxiety doesn’t follow logic or allow logic.

Here’s the problem.  Christians need community.

I’m beginning to realize something.  My social anxiety exists because deep down I am longing for community.  I want to belong.  If I didn’t care, I wouldn’t have the anxiety.

Here’s the reason we need community.  Most evangelism and social justice work happens in groups.

As a Christian we are called to do a couple of things.  The first and most important is the great commission.  We are called to make disciples.

Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.
— Matthew 28:19-20 ESV

Gathering people to bring them into knowledge of Christ can look a lot of different ways.  Almost all of the opportunities I have to be evangelistic or to disciple young Christians have been in groups: Bible club, Sunday school, mission trips, summer bike lunch delivery, and church outreaches.

The other thing we are called to do as Christians is to job of social justice.

He has told you, O man, what is good; and what does the LORD require of you but to do justice, and to love kindness, and to walk humbly with your God?
— Micah 6:8 ESV

This season of my life, God has called me into orphan care ministries, and much of our work at my church, Citychurch, involves fatherless children.

All of this work has been done in community with my church and orphan care groups.  Even our adoption that is still in the waiting stages has involved many other Christians.  So many friends and family have prayed for us and participated in our fundraisers.

When I realize the importance community plays in the work of the Kingdom, no wonder Satan would love for me to be engulfed in anxiety.

The anxiety that I suffer when I interact with other people is a huge attack on The Church, His community.

I am convinced (because I get so much response when I talk about anxiety and because Brene Brown is a best selling author) that so many people suffer the same attacks that I do, causing them to draw away from community.

If you are one of those people, let me encourage you to see those thoughts for what they are, spiritual attacks, and inspire you to realize that doing the hard work of overcoming the anxiety is important to the Church.

It has been hard for me to recognize when thoughts during social anxiety are true or untrue, but learning how to separate those thoughts from truth and thoughts that are from the roaring lion who seeks to devour me is important to overcoming anxiety.

It is not easy, but find some wise council that can help you begin to disprove your anxiety driven thoughts.  Becoming a part of community will encourage your growth as a Christian, increase your dependence on God, and your effectiveness as an active part of the Church.

Remember these words in 1 John because it reminds us of the love God has for us each individually.

So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him. By this love perfected with us, so that we may have confidence for the day of judgement, because as he is so also are we in this world. There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear.
— 1 John 4:16-18a ESV
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Bold or not

A few of weeks ago in Oregon, I was riding the public transportation to the airport with my friend Kaylie Hodges.  We had to get off downtown and switch trains.  That’s where we saw him coming, a homeless man asking for handouts.  

He told us his story, one I’ve heard from homeless men before.  My grandma has died; I’m out on the streets trying to travel to another state.

He had no way of knowing that I’m well versed in talking to homeless.  Citychurch is in the crosshairs of the three biggest homeless outreaches downtown.  They walk past our building on their path between those resources.

Standing there with my suitcase, I probably looked like a small town girl who’s never seen the big city.  The man started naming bad neighborhoods across America because he thought I would be intimidated by the names and stop asking questions.  “Harlem, Compton, Camden.”

He didn’t know I had already made up my mind when I saw him start walking my way.  I have a strategy.  I almost never give a monetary handout to homeless men, but if I feel like I need to, he’s going to hear about Jesus and get a prayer.

He could throw out any name, and I was going to keep talking.  His goal was to talk me out of a couple dollars.  My goal was to get our subject to switch to Jesus.

I finally wrangled our talking around with a couple questions, “I’m sorry about you losing your grandmother, did she know the Lord?”  And, “What about you?  Do you know the Lord?”

We continued talking until I saw our train approaching.  I took his hand, and I said a quick prayer for him.

I handed him a few dollars, and we got on our train.  Kaylie immediately complemented my boldness, which I wasn’t sure I agreed with.  

It’s easy to talk to homeless people about Jesus.  I don’t have anything invested in their response, only Jesus does.

It’s much harder to talk to my peers about Jesus, someone I respect.

I thought about my strategy for talking to this man.  I immediately knew where I had gotten this idea.  I had come up with this “Jesus talk” strategy to deal with people that you don’t mind scaring away in college.

My first semester of college, I attended Stephen F. Austin State University, and I shared a dorm room with my high school best friend Cheryl.  Cheryl and I had the best time that semester living together.  We ate a lot of greasy pizza, watched a lot of tv, and spent a lot of time acting silly.

Cheryl is still one of the best people I've ever known in my life.

Cheryl is still one of the best people I've ever known in my life.

My dorm room at SFA University.  I was deep into The Beatles, and the first movie James and I had seen together was The Lion King.  I have no defense for the George Clooney pictures.

My dorm room at SFA University.  I was deep into The Beatles, and the first movie James and I had seen together was The Lion King.  I have no defense for the George Clooney pictures.

It was the 90s, and our room had a landline.  I don’t know if dorms still have phones.  I would be surprised if they did.

Our first week of dorm life, we got a prank call.  It was a Saturday afternoon, and the prank caller kept calling back.  We discussed some strategies for dealing with this problem including unplugging the phone and telling the R.A., but we finally settled on my idea.  “Let’s tell them about Jesus.  If they call back, I’ll start witnessing to them.  They will either talk to be about God or never call back.  It’s win, win.”

Cheryl told me that if it was my idea, then I was going to have to do it.  We went on with our dorm room activities.  I can’t remember what that activity was, but I can only imagine it included rearranging school supplies in our backpacks and desks, light studying, or something equally as nerdy.  I do remember that feeling of butterflies as we waited to see if our phone would ring again.  It did.  I picked up.  I began one of many conversations I would have about God with a young man from, of all places, Oregon.

This prank caller became our friend.  We ended up spending a lot of time with him.  It turned out we didn’t scare him away.  We didn’t immediately convert him, but that call gave me some confidence, some boldness.

If I’m honest with myself, I know that I had nothing to lose in either of these “bold” scenarios.  I would not lose a bit of reputation or skin in talking to these strangers about Jesus.  I don’t feel proud of myself for proclaiming truth to someone I might never see again.

One of the things that is important to me as a Christian is how I have shared my faith with others because I don’t want to be the servant who buries the talents I’ve been given.  Honestly I don’t know how to rank these times of sharing.  Are they garbage evangelism?  What if I told you that that boy in college became a Christian?  Does that make it rank higher?  Is it even fair to rank them because aren’t all people important to our Lord?

Sharing your faith with someone you have a relationship with is definitely more difficult.  There could be real consequences.  Your conversation can shift or even end your relationship.  Does that danger impress the God who spoke our universe into existence and grants my every breath?

The truth is that I don’t know how important any conversation might be.  God can use any, all, or none of the times I share my faith to change someone’s faith in Him.  The important thing is to keep sharing out of a sincere heart.  I do care about that homeless man.  I looked him in the eye, asked his name, held his hand, and I talked to God with him.  I doubt that happens a lot in the the streets of the very secular city he is living in.  How many travelers from the Bible belt have done that for him?  And do we believe that God can answer prayers about a man addicted to drugs, living on the street?

Share your faith whenever you’re given the opportunity.  Bold or not, It is the sharing that is important.  It is showing love that is crucial.

Let love be genuine. Abhor what is evil; hold fast to what is good. Love one another with brotherly affection. Outdo one another in showing honor. Do not be slothful in zeal, be fervent in spirit, serve the Lord. Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer. Contribute to the needs of the saints and seek to show hospitality. Bless those who persecute you; bless and do not curse them. Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep. Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight.
— Romans 12:9-16 ESV
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