My thoughts are too much.
My ideas are too much.
My feelings are too much
I take everything too seriously.
I care too much.
I make people uncomfortable because of my excess of thoughts, ideas, and feelings.
These are all the lies I believed about myself centered around this idea of being too much. And these lies aren’t just lies. They are shame. I believed there was something wrong with me. I constantly censored myself around people because I believed they couldn’t handle it if I let them see the real me — hear what I was really thinking, share all my ideas, or show what I was really feeling. I’ve been censoring myself for so long that I don’t know if I will ever be comfortable enough to stop completely.
If I cry, I’m being too emotional. If I laugh, I’m being too flippant. If I talk, I’ll probably be disagreed with. If I don’t talk, I’m being too quiet.
This is really hard to write about. I’ve been dreading sharing this because this place in me is still raw. I don’t have it all figured out. I’m still changing this lie to truth in my thought patterns.
But I know so many of you have this same lie haunting your thoughts and actions. I know so many of you shame and censor yourselves too.
Let’s make a deal. Let’s quit believing this together.
I’m not too much.
You are not too much.
You know how I’m beginning to see the light of the truth about us? I’m beginning to see a fuller picture of who Jesus is and knowing that allows me to shine a light on the truth about us.
Jesus is the Great Acceptor.
He did not come to earth to point out our flaws. He came to earth to bridge the gap between our possibility of righteousness without Him to our possibility of righteousness with Him. He came to bring us life, not tweak our personality. He came because he loved us — who we were created to be, not to dim or censor our personality to be less.
God sees you and knows you, and He doesn’t think you are too much because you are not too much.
God loves you and likes you, and He doesn’t ask you to censor your thoughts, ideas, or feelings because He already knows them anyway.
Here’s the thing that makes being yourself hard. There are people that will reject you when you share your thoughts, ideas, and feelings. Guess what? It’s ok. You are not any less of a wonderful creation because a person doesn’t like you.
The work of fighting these lies also requires the work of letting go of needing acceptance from other people.
I already have the only acceptance I need from the Great Acceptor.
It is all I need. (Well, it is all I want to need. I have yet to let go of that addiction to people pleasing completely, but I am fighting for that freedom because I need it to be healthy.)
You already have the only acceptance you need from the Great Acceptor.
He knows you, sees you, loves you, and likes you.
Quit shaming yourself. Allow yourself to be you. Share your ideas. Show your true feelings. Quit worrying about people’s reactions.
Use common sense as you do this. There are unsafe people in this world, and you may need help figuring out who is a safe person to share your feelings with.
In safe situations, be you.