This week I posted that I was having trouble deciding on a word for 2017. I made a cute, helpful worksheet for you and I to use in deciding on our word. (Just subscribe, and I'll email it to you.)
Well, my worksheet worked. I picked a word using my worksheet this morning, and I'm thrilled.
My word is confidence.
It's beautiful because it has two meanings that fit perfectly with the two big themes I see emerging for my life this year. Let me explain.
First is this definition:
There are so many things that God is doing that I have no control over.
We are in the process of raising $27,000 to proceed with an adoption of a little boy who is 8,000 miles away, who we've never met. We have so little control over whether or not this adoption happens, but we are putting every bit of energy we can spare into making it happen. We have 1/3 of the money we need so far, and we are filling out more paperwork and grants. We are planning fundraisers and doing everything we can to adopt our little "A." It is ultimately up to God. He is going to have to provide financially, emotionally, and spiritually for this adoption to happen. At any moment, the Ethiopian government or the regional government where he is from or the United States government could stop this adoption for whatever reason. At any moment, our health or financial situation could change and put a halt to this adoption. At any moment, a number of things that I can't even think of could stop this adoption. I am going to have to trust and trust hard on the God who called us to adoption years ago. We have been faithful to His call, and He is always faithful, more faithful than I could even imagine. I will need to have confidence in Him or I might lose all my marbles this year.
I have other things in my life that are going to require trusting the Lord. I've got a daughter graduating high school and going off to college this year. No big deal. I'm not freaking out about it at all. Yeah right!
The second definition of confidence is this.
There are a couple things I wrote down for things that make me come alive. I wrote teaching about Jesus and writing. These are things that God has gifted me to do, and if I don't have confidence in my ability to do them (because of His strength), then I won't be able to try all the things that I want to try this year.
I had a dream the other night that I was getting up to teach a room full of women. I was so terrified and so moved to be authentic in my talk that I cried all my make up off, frantically searched for my Bible, and then got up to teach. It was the most frightening and exhilarating dreams I've had in years. When I finally began my talk, it all came together. I could have woke up from that dream, got up to a podium, and gave that speech. I know exactly what I would say because God has been building this message in my heart for years.
This dream may never come true, but I'm going to keep on writing and teaching just like it is going to happen tomorrow.
What about you? Have you chosen your word for 2017? Do you have dreams and struggles coming up this year and need some focus? Comment below! Sign up to receive my worksheet by email if you need a little help finding your word.
Some verses about confidence.
A song for you today.