Don't know what Five Minute Friday is? It's this crazy, fun writing exercise where you are given a one-word prompt on Thursday night, you set a timer, and write away for only five short minutes. There's this wonderful community of writers that participate every week. You can find them on Twitter by searching #FMFparty. Five Minute Friday is quick and fun, like fast food writing practice. Find out more here. This week's prompt is HIDE. So, timer set...
I do this thing to make people happy. That thing is hiding my true feelings. I’m a people pleaser with two capital p’s.
If it means not offending someone, even someone I don’t like, even someone drunk who won’t remember me or how I acted, even someone who is treating me badly, I will hide, hide, hide my true feelings.
The tricky thing about this is that I don’t have the best poker face. I don’t have one at all. My face gives me away, every single time. I’m sure of it.
The sad thing is I honestly don’t know if I would wish for a more open, honest dialog to come freely from my mouth or a better poker face.
If I didn’t hide, would I say things I might regret later?
Would giving up people pleasing make me any happier?
Am I really hiding from others or myself when I hide my thoughts and feelings?
I don't know. If I did know would I say so or just hide?